Fanficcing with Claude: The Rector’s Other Business, Chapter 5

She had come prepared. That was the first thing. She had not come here on impulse. The stillness she had shown, standing by the gate, was the stillness of someone who had been waiting for exactly this moment, which meant she had known the moment was coming, which meant she had known what I was inside doing. How did she know the time had come? I do not claim to know. Perhaps Kitty had come to Lucas Lodge and gossiped with Maria Lucas, or perhaps those who lived in the county long enough could set their clocks by the unfolding of Mrs. Bennet’s schemes.

I started towards the garden gate, but she closed the distance between us before I could reach it, and set herself in front of me with something of the air of a highwayman. I half-expected her to ask me to stand and deliver.

When she stopped, she stood so close that I could feel her breath on my face, when she looked up at me. She was far too close to perform to, partly because any performance would be unconvincing at this range. But also because her closeness made me uncomfortably aware that I was a man and she was a woman of my own age, who did not deserve to be called plain. At Oxford, I had seen many men undone by situations like this, and I had learned to distrust the emotions they roused.

I made a feeble attempt at distracting her. “Miss Lucas, what a delightful —”

“I will be brief,” she said, “because I think you are a man who prefers brevity when there is real business to conduct.”

I looked at her. She looked back at me, steady and patient, waiting to see what I would do.

“Go on,” I said.

“I know what you are,” she said. “I know that you are considerably more than you appear to be. I have known it since your visit to Lucas Lodge, and I have spent the time since then deciding what to do with the knowledge.”

The morning was very quiet. Somewhere in the house behind us, I could hear the faint register of Mrs. Bennet’s voice, too distant to distinguish words. Elizabeth would be somewhere in that house, having just delivered her refusal to a man she believed she had comprehensively declined. I hoped her father would exert himself at the noise. Probably he would; he seemed fond of Elizabeth.

“And what have you decided?” I tried to keep my voice light.

She held my gaze without difficulty. “I am proposing a marriage, Mr. Collins. A practical one, entered into with clear eyes on both sides. I am not asking for your heart, and I am not offering mine. I am offering you a wife who will manage your household competently, conduct herself in society without drawing attention, and ask no questions to which you cannot give a clergyman’s answer.”

She paused, and then added: “In return, I ask for honesty between us, in private. Not full disclosure. I understand there are things it would be better for me not to know in detail, and I am not asking for details. I am asking that you not insult my intelligence. That you treat our marriage as a partnership rather than a convenience. And that whatever it is you are doing in Kent, you ensure it does not get either of us killed.”

The last condition was delivered in the same measured tone as the preceding ones. I found this, on reflection, the most alarming thing about the entire speech. I began to wonder how deeply her father had been involved in the trade, and how much his womenfolk knew of it.

“You are very certain of what I am,” I said at last.

“I am certain enough to make this offer,” she said. “If I am wrong, you may refuse me, and we will both pretend this conversation did not occur, and I will have lost nothing but a morning.”

“And if you are right?”

“Then you are a man who needs a wife he cannot afford to underestimate, and I am a woman who needs a household to be mistress of. I am running out of time. You may not be, but I am sure you would find no better or more honest arrangement if you crossed all England in search of a bride.”

She looked at me with the eyes of a woman who has reviewed her ledgers and trusts the balance.

I should have asked how she knew. I should have established exactly what she had and from where. But she was standing too close to me, and she had spoken to me with a directness I was not accustomed to receiving, and demanding proof of what she claimed to know would have been precisely the insult to her intelligence she had asked me not to deliver. I made the decision to proceed on her word. It was possibly unwise. It was also, I recognized even at the time, the only way forward that did not lose me the conversation entirely.

The men of my operation hide behind masks and nicknames, but I go among them bare-faced, and they know that it is the rector of Hunsford who commands them, even though they call me the Captain. They know what I am capable of, and the penalty for crossing me, and they act accordingly. I do not run goods for the sake of their respect, but the respect is welcome nonetheless. What the Captain gets is fear shaded into respect. What Mr. Collins gets is comfortable dismissal.

Charlotte Lucas, standing far too close in a garden in Hertfordshire, had looked at me and spoken to me and had not been addressing the Captain, and had not been addressing Mr. Collins of Hunsford either. She had been addressing the man behind those two figures. I had not shown that man to anyone and had not intended to show her, but she had looked at him steadily and offered him a business proposition.

“The Goftons,” I said, “have four children. The youngest is eighteen months.”

She waited.

“There are seven families in my parish,” I said, “who would be in material difficulty within two seasons if the current network were disrupted. Eight more beyond them, who might manage without the network, or might not. This operation has been running for nearly three years without serious incident. I intend it to continue.”

“I understand,” she said.

“You would be coming into something with real stakes,” I said.

“Yes. I had gathered that.”

I looked at her for a moment longer. She bore this with equanimity.

“You said that you are not asking for details.”

“I am not.”

“But you would want, I think, to be useful. You were useful, to your father in his time.”

This was a bow drawn at a venture, but the shot went home. Something shifted in her expression, a slight easing, as if a question she had not asked had been answered in a way she had not dared to hope for.

“Yes,” she said at last.

I thought about the operational value of a woman with a steady head and a merchant father’s inherited instincts, installed at Hunsford with full domestic authority and a clergyman’s wife’s access to every family in the parish. I thought about what it would mean to come home to someone who knew what home actually was.

“There are conditions,” I said.

“Of course,” she said.

“My people come first. Before my comfort, before yours, before any consideration of what is convenient. If it comes to a choice between the operation and our domestic arrangements, the operation takes precedence. That is not negotiable.”

She nodded thoughtfully.

“You will meet Pyke, my sexton. He has been with the operation from the beginning. His judgment is sound. You will treat what he tells you as if it came from me.”

“Very well.”

“And if at any point, you want out, you tell me directly and we will find a new arrangement. Perhaps some excuse for you to visit your parents for an extended stay. I will not hold you to something you entered into without full knowledge of the risks.”

She considered this. “That is, a more generous condition than I expected.”

I do not like to be thought generous. Those who give are always a target for those who take.

“It is a more practical condition than you might think. A partner who wants to leave is a liability. A partner who stays because the alternative is worse is a larger one.”

She smiled calmly.

“Then we understand each other,” she said.

“We do.”

We stood for a moment in the morning light. In the house behind us, the voices had multiplied, and the morning was moving forward. The world was preparing to be informed of things it would entirely misunderstand. There would be a great deal to manage. There always was.

I offered her my arm to walk back to the house.

“Miss Lucas,” I said.

“Mr. Collins,” she said. She took my arm with the composure of a woman who had known she would be doing this when she crossed the garden.

We started towards the house, and Mrs. Bennet’s voice wafted towards us through the window. “…Or I shall never speak to her again!”

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